Puzzle pieces of a beautiful picture

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Alone

Today......seeing Chi Kuan.....watching movie alone.......he kind of reminded me of myself......i mean.....I used to do that....I mean watched movie alone.....I used to do that, I watched X-men the last stand, Harry Potter order of phoenix.....and many more....all by myself.....when new show comes....all I have to do is wait till Wednesday and just watch the damn movie in the afternoon....no need to bother and waste my time to go and ajak people.......somehow...I developed the habit of being alone....I shopped alone......every time I went to any shopping complex with my family....the first thing i do after stepping out of the car park is ditching them...I rather go shopping alone rather than anyone accompany me.....not just that....I enjoyed being alone....I was so happy and glad whenever I was home alone....to me back then....being lonely.......doing stuff alone is not a problem but......now I realised that I've changed...for some reason, I've changed....the current I are afraid of being lonely....right now, I have to find someone to accompany me to watch a damn stupid movie.....and I need to find someone to follow me go shopping.....and whenever I was home alone, I so wish that I have friends in my house....I gradually afraid of the loneliness.......ironic....very ironic...loneliness used to be my friend....in fact my best friend and now...loneliness is my greatest fear.....
From my experience, I can full of confidence and say this 'All human are afraid of being alone' No matter how cold, how dark, how goth is that person....they are still human.....human that afraid of being lonely...afraid to be left alone....
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Saturday, November 29, 2008

Sum 41- With Me

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go
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Friday, November 28, 2008

Am I just a dream?

Woke up in the morning....a sudden thought hit me, why do I exist in this world?.....how do human come to exist in this world?....religion would say that God created us...science would say evolution, but.........somehow by just thinking about that.....I feel that i am not real....I mean.....moving a finger....closing my eyes.....even walking...all these normal activities....out of sudden.....feels like fiction. How do I to all those things? Is it really because of the nerve cells sending nerve impulse.....or is it something else. Sometimes I feel like my existence's, this world I'm living, my family, my friends, and all the people I know its just someones dream...that we are totally control by this 'someone'. Every step I take, every decision I made, every inch bit of movement i made....it's just doesn't feel like it was my doing, it feels like the 'someone' wanted me to do it, it feels like everything was already planned out that we are just following the script without even realizing there is such script. As if all my action, all my thought are being control by this 'someone'...that I'm just a simple play toy, a puppet that have no will of our own......a dream........that when this 'someone' wakes up.....this world is going to disappear....I am going to disappear.....It freaks me out......this feeling, this thought...it really freaks me out.....thinking that all those happy moments.....thinking that all those adventure that I have...all those stuff that I learn is actually none of my doing but a particular 'someone' want it or dream it to happen......a random dream that it can all just disappear in a blink of an eye.
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Thursday, November 27, 2008

Starbucks.....




Yesterday we went to starbucks centro...the 'we' i meant me, weng kit, ah siang, ee lin. pei ying, angeline and whay ying...hahahaha actually nyng sher supposed to be there too but then...when we called her...she said she forgotten about our outing hahahahahaha....all of us like yelling at her for forgetting such an important event...anyway...angeline's bday is coming up, so we bought her a cake and we eat we chat...we have fun......we are like snapping picture all the way...and hahahahahahaha the camera just hate whay ying hahahaha....she looked funny in ost of the pic hahahahahahahaha at the finale...we tried to take pic..in front of the world map...and I think we go like take 56 or something hahahaha we just love to snap .





Angeline making a wish



Ah Siang making stupid face



Whay Ying's ugly pic 1



Whay Ying's ugly pic 2



COOLNESS



Emoing



NOTE: THEIR BOOK WAS UPSIDE DOWN

UMMMMMMM



SWEETNESS



Main subject----Angeline





Whay Ying holding the tree


Samson trying to wish angeline happy bday


Brother Blood



Group Pic


Emoing


random pose



CANDID
First Jump

The Last Pic..with two stranger we met at starbucks

Okay I know that this entry sucks...well you have to bear with it...sorry

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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Memories

Long long time ago when about fifteen, I went to see a doctor...maybe I'm sicl or something..I just can't remember...anyway....in the doctor's office, there was a whiteboard...and on it was a quote that hit e like a bullet...I can't really remember the exact word...but it is something like that
'When one is known to be immortal, it is not because he able to live 100 or 200 years but when one is known to be immortal when memories of one are still remain'
I was inspired by that quote because I totally agree with it, a person are not immortal because he able to live a long life, but he/she is immortal because the memories of them and their prove of existance is still remain in some people's heart....
So this quote got me into writting blogs, this blog consist of all my thoughts, all my memories, all of feeling....I am a forgetful person....so I have to write it and also .. this blog will be the prove of my existance and as a refrences for my readers...as when I died...my memories and my story still live....
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Rain Drops

Standing still alone under a drizzling rain...looking up...staring at the dark sky.....droplets of rain drop by drop appearing out of the darkness and one by one like a symphony pelted on my face......the chill of the weather the cold of the droplets sipped through my skin and shiver down my heart...the chill brings back memories...memories of those dark time...thoughts that sleep deep in your heart..... standing alone under the drizzling rain...looking up...staring at the dark sky...droplets of rain drop by drop appearing out of the darkness....everything seems gloomy all of a sudden
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Sunday, November 23, 2008

Nickname

HAHAHAHAH this is also another crappy post so don't really bother to read it hahaha

OKAY for those people who know that I tend to give nicknames to my friend and I'll put that nickname instead of your name in my hp........so here is the list of those nickname......

Alford-Al-FORD/ siau hen tian
Koh Keik Wee-KIWI
Wang Chee Kian- Wang Wang/ Edison
Melvin-Mel Mel
Wai Choong-leng chai choong
Nicholas-Bambi/pervboy
Calvin-Little Pigeon
Wei Siang-Teddy Bear
Ryan-little ry-ry
Heng Hong-Haley
Peh Chin yee-Isabella
Chow-Chow sama
Farhan-Shirley/curvy
brian-boogeyman
dun vi-vivi
chin min-KIM
chi kuan-臭 chi kuan
tuck chun-chun li
boon yee-pulu pulu
yee wei-男的
sallyn-sal
Alan Gideon-Clover
Ellen-猫
Vinothan-Logan
mun mun-pingko pingko
parveen-parveenna
cheryl-sherock
siew seong-小熊
Taufik-Taufik-kun/Thum Thum/ Thummy
jacqueline-blue prefect
lily-flower
pei ying-wonderland girl
ee lin-my agent
And the latest discovery

Weng Kit-Wengkitpedia

for those without nickname please don't be sad...it is not that I don't want to give but I still can't find a suitable one hahahah so be patient

P.s I put edi cbox in y blog so leave ur msg and comment through there...tq
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Saturday, November 22, 2008

Just some random post

Okay I'm bored and I have nothing to do, so I post this entry which obviously is just a load of CRAP...so don't bother to read it...cuz it is just full of crap

1st Crap

According to a source (Kenneth), apparently Kian Fei....our kian fei are currently dating stephanie.....I was stunned...well they are pretty great in hiding huh

2nd Crap

Jodi Picoult is a genius...her book 'nineteen minutes' is a total master piece and right now I'm reading 'the pact' and it is awesome

3rd Crap

Vandread is the best Mecha Anime in this world.....hahahahahaha

4th Crap

Sum 41-With Me and Secondhand Serenade-Stay Close, Don't go .......they rock

5th Crap

That idiot Kevin Koh Keik Wee....so long didn't online...I know you busy lah....you such an important person edilah

6th Crap

Apparently Weng Kit spend his holiday thinking up some crappy question but....it was kind of fun....the question I mean

7th Crap

This end year holiday....I want to go shopping, sunway lagoon, skating, and starbucks

8th Crap

There is a site that I would like you people to check it out...it is a blog written in chinese and it was GOOD VERI GOOD (http://www.wretch.cc/blog/yong5399)

9th Crap

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

10th Crap

I am gonna be one of the volunteer staff for comic fiesta 2008 bwuahahahaha
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Saturday, November 15, 2008

In the quest of catching bugs

Okay Bio assignment for the holiday is to capture some bugs and plants and we have to present them...dead but well preserved yada yada...in this holiday my group have to catch bugs and pick plants....so basically it is a tough assignment....by the way...my group consist of me (duh!!), Heng Chuan, Surendran, Abdullah, Tuck Cheok and our leader Tuck Chun....So on the 13th of Nov we went to Bukit Cahaya early in the morning to catch some bugs hahahaah well just me the tucks and heng chuan. At first we didn't really get anything i mean we basically just walking around pointlessly and aimlessly oh we did caught something....we caught a grasshopper a HUGE well technically the grasshopper hopped right in front of us anyway it was pregnant so we let it go. Again as I said at first we are not that lucky...around 10 something we went back to the entrance to have breakfast, lunch and brunch then we set out again...but this time we rented some bikes hahaha so we cycled around the Bukit Cahaya....stop at some certain pit stop....cycle away from the main road and finally we caught ourselves soe interesting bugs...we caught some butterfly, some dragon fly and....well basically that is all...haiz pathetic....anyway...talking about the bicycle ride OMG..it is torture especially when uphill....I am a wimp...I am not an athlete.....my stamina is freaking low....so it was really exchausting cycling uphill but I kind of enjoy the downhill 1) you don have to cycle or use any energy 2) the feeling of speed, feeling of wind blowing in to my face...I wonder did Air Treck gave you the same feeling....haiz how much i wish i have an AT...anyway back to the story....around 2pm we started to head home.....and tell you what my leg is killing me due to the cycling and my ass is so soar due to the bike haiz......anyway we went to 'ANG TAU BENG' to have lunch with Ah Leong, KML and Weng Kit...then we went to the tucks house to kill the bugs....I am so sorry hahaha thats the end...by the way Tucks ur dogs is so cute.....but I prefer YOGI hahahahaha



Beautiful Morning

You thought they were catching bug but actually they are faking it hhahahaha




red=HC, yellow= chun li, green=cheok...the colour of the traffic light

The Twins...Great PIc

What is HC doin?...No Idea

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

My 18th Bday Act 2

HAHAHAHA this is my final act hahahahahaha let me tell you the story...at first I planned to celebrate my 18th bday with the crazy bunch so I contacted our agent EE Lin to organize manatau all of them say cannot go out on friday so ee lin said that on fri she will take me to watch movie....at first I don really have the mood but...haiz what the hell so I said yes....hahaha she said she going to fetch me before 8.00 pm so I freaking waited in my house for so damn long and its already 8.15pm haiz at that time I am so pissed man...than tiba-tiba she called me via my cell and called me to come out...walaueh her tone ah lagi pisses me of...but nevermindlah hahaha I take a deep breath and go out loh....while I was unlocking the front gate...I saw whay ying hiding beside a car ( which was parked at the side of my house front gate) anyway...when I saw whay ying's head....I know already what I am getting.....hahaha a freaking surprise party...hahahaah so I shouted 'Whay Ying I saw your head already lah' hahahahaa then they all come rushing out from their hiding place adn they were like laughing hahahaha by the way the 'they' I meant Joyce, Ee lin, Whay Ying, Nying Sher, Cheryl, Lily, Ah Siang and Weng Kit...hahahaha so we are like hanging around outside the road for a while then we head to central....hahaha Joyce are fetching me and Ee Lin and Joyce go a little nuts....she laughed for small little things like 'the fellow didn't turn on the light' or something like that hahahahaha....then at the central we had a blast...but bday present....


anyway at central we are like bull shitting and crapping and most of the time we were teasing ee lin and the MR HONG KONG LEG gaggagagagaga then suddenly Whay Ying, Joyce and Nying Sher disappeared hahahaha I know what it means edi....Bday Cake...but they go so freaking long eh...hahaha long story short....when they are back...the two singer went up stage and again for some cosmic reason...I pay my absolute attention at them...then out of sudden they sang happy birthday song and a waiter was carrying a cake and put it in front of me hahahahaha walaueh.......what's more on top of the cake there were like 3 condom stucked on it hahahaha after the blowing candle and makind wish stuff...we opened up the three condom and start throwing here and there hahahahaahahaha and we are like laughing all the time..hahahaha and weng kit say the uncle sitting at the next table are like staring at us hahahahaha haiz anyway the stuff after that I really wished that I able to write it down...but all the above is so in tense that I got extremely exhausted by just typing it...so i am gonna end here and just put some pic hahahahahaha






















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My 18th Bday Act1

HAHAHA Sorry for waiting for so long hahahaha.....I need time to collect pic and a perfect mood to post this entries. First of all, is the 7th of November hahahaha yes the day have finally comes hahahaha........I went to school as usual...nothing strange just a couple of people wishing me happy bday....I never expect anything to happen....but then that stupid Chin Min, Yee Wei, Boon Yee, Heng Chuan, Tuck Cheok, and Tuck Chun suddenly pulled of that stunt hahaha I guessed that your are quite blur right now, so let me elaborate more...so after the assembly, my class which is 6b3 marched our way to the bio lab...and we are like waiting for Shakira to enter our class....by the way....at that moment heng chuan is not in the lab...anyway...the lavb is so freaking hot, so I switched on the fan...then tiba-tiba tuck chun switched off the fan right after I on it....so I was liked What the f**k? Eh Chun Li why you switched off the fan? and he said that he was cold....for some cosic reason or whatever paranormal reason....I believed him and I didn't switched on the fan again.....I went back to my place without even an inch of suspicion...then out of sudden, without even a minute to spare, without even a second for me to comprehend the situation....Chin Min and Yee Wei carrying a muffin with a big candles and 8 small candles attached on it...by the way there are like singing the happy birthday song...hahahaha when all my classmate finally understand what is happening, they too sang the happy bday song hahahahah I was like so freaking stunt and my head is over pumped with joy...hahahhahaaha anyway I know I've thank you guys a lot of time already but still I want to say it again....thanks again to Chin Min, Yee Wei, Boon Yee, Heng Chuan, Tuck Chun, and Tuck Cheok...for everything you've done.
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Friday, November 7, 2008

Thanks To Everyone

HAHAHA This entry is a special thanks for all those people that wishes me happy birthday either verbally, via sms, friendster and facebook.

THANKS AGAIN TO;

Sheng Yu
Chow
Chin Min, Yee Wei, Heng Chuan, Boon Yee, Tuck Chun, and Tuck Cheok for the muffin
Sian Hui
Wai Mun
Sze Chiet
Surendran
Abdullah
Kian Guan
Pheng Ee
Leng Wei
Carol
Sallyn
Alford
Kiwi
Kenneth
Qiao Yan
Chee Keat
Nick
Shen Lee
Lian Chin
Heng Hong
Debbie
Bambi
Shugi
Xingern
Weng Kit, lily, cheryl, ee lin, joyce, nying sher, siang and whay ying for the surprise party

P.S...Sorry you have to wait for the story about my surprise party hahahaha I will post it...after I collect all the pic..hahahaha
posted by Crazy Apple at 11:17 PM 0 comments

The Last Day Of Schools


HAHAHAHAHA yesterday is the last day of school hahahahahaha yes I get to do a lot of things during the holiday hahahahaa and I don't have to see Hard Khor, Mr. Lee and also Auntie Rosie face anymore...well at least for 2 month bwuahahahahahahaha bwuahahahaahahaha


TETAPI....aside from all those....happy feeling....I'm still missing it....I mean going to school...I am gonna miss my classmate 6b3 Wai Mun, Geok Lim, Abdullah, Surendran, Parveen, Haswin, Ananthy, Nick, Chun Yao, Guo Rong Chin Xuan, Kian Guan, Wei Shen, Yu Ying, Chai Ying, Toulene, Wendy, Jac, Xiu-Hui, Yen Loo, Sow Peng, Revathy, Amy, Chun Fah, Bee Young, Dana and Kohilah.....I am gonna miss all the form 6 friends.....Sheng Yu, Boon Yee, Sian Hui, Yee Wei, Leng Wei, Carol, Sallyn, JJ, and many many many more hahahaha


I am gonna miss my classes as well...I am gonna miss Bio and Shaniza I have fun during bio....my muet classes where we just crap a lot in the class with Mashitah...then of course PA 1 and PA 2....Zaleha and Fatihah class are cool hahahahahaha


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Tuesday, November 4, 2008

The Results of my Finals

HAHAHAHA finally the day have come.......the results of my finals...hahahaha your anticipation have finally stopped...well my anticipatiton...anyway...the result...hahahaha first off...my PA i did rather okay...actually I expected it to be better...well......




My Test paper




Forgot to colour the last box= minus 8 marks


Moving on to math...holy shit I thought I was failling...gosh luckily and thank god I managed to pass my math...'45' can be said that it is the lowest mark that I ever get for math in my whole life...but I didnt care anyore...45 is a pass and I'm extremely happy about it.


My math paper


Next would be my bio...hahaha again... a pass..54 and I was right about my essay....I didn't really answer the question....actually I can do better...haiz......because I am too freaking lazy


Haiz write until 3 pages with diagram lagi...but oni get 7 marks out of 13...




Hahaha last but not least my chemistry...hehehe first of all I FREAKING PASS CHEMISTRY. Second of all I FREAKING GOT 58 FOR MY CHEMY WOOHOOOOO....hahahaha I was so freaking happy because it is totally way way WAY better than I expected and also I able to throw it at Hard Khor's face....hahaha telling her that I am not as dumb as she think I am hahahahaha.



THE FREAKING 58 HAHAHAHAHA
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Saturday, November 1, 2008

Quotation of Life

......These are quotes from and anime called 'Boys Be' anyway...the point I'm writing well.....typing this entry because...some of this quotes touches my heart...and I hope some these quotes touches you too...anyway these quotes are divided into 4 part and each part are named after a season.....note: those quotes that in red are my fav....



Spring


'Cherry blossoms, the noble flower, witness to many an encounter over time.
Cherry blossoms, the vain flower, have watched many a farewell. And again this
year they bloom to watch over a lot of faint but painful feelings in the season
of beginnings called spring'
"Nice memories have their own scent. Whenever you are veiled
in its scent, Your heart can always return to your unforgettable past. Together
with your own scenery that will never fade."
"There are many books in the library. Each book has a wonderful story that will never happen in reality. But as you fall in love, reality becomes a wonderful story, better than any novel."
Summer

"No one can stop the flow of time. But a moment captured in the frame of the heart will never disappear. That will be shown at the bottom of their hearts, and will always give off a great feeling. Sweet...and bitter."
"The color blue has a soothing effect on people. All their stresses and troubles are absorbed by the blue. Awakening honest souls which have no lies. Summer is the season...that is colored in blue."

"Not many people know when love really starts... More than a friend, but not quite lovers.
A delicate relationship like this changes gradually once it is noticed, and keeps on
blossoming, Just like the changing seasons."
"The summer days blow through fiercely. With the buried feeling that something is going to happen... Over a summer storm, Soon, the season will change..."
Autumn
"With summer's raucous noises, a simple dream seen in spring has turned into a simple heartbreak. The melancholy autumn wind speaks quietly of its meaning...Your heart's true self..."
"In the autumn it is said that the reason why leaves fall down from the branch is to make way for new leaves to grow. No matter how sad the fallen leaves look, there will always be new sprouts in the spring. Perhaps, emptiness in the heart is something similar to that."
"All sound has died out, and the cold, dark night fills the room. Unable to get to sleep, holding on to the covers. Suddenly, that's when it strikes, as if your chest is being squeezed and wanted to cry. A painful and uneasy feeling. From the depths of the heart, a thing called "loneliness" will come"
Winter
"Snow covers everything in white. It covers the sadness, softly. If there is happiness, it decorates it beautifully. The snow continues to fall..."
"An ending will come to everything in this world. It may be a fate that one could never avoid."
"There is nothing that really changes, there is nothing that really ends. It's hard to admit, but that is reality. One season ends, and another season begins."
posted by Crazy Apple at 2:50 AM 1 comments