Puzzle pieces of a beautiful picture

Does this darkness have a name?.....This hatred......this unbearable jealously.....and the chill that ripped open my heart.....Does this darkness have a name?

A big bright smile on the outside...the childishness....the craziness...all those eccentric behaviour..................al those things in the outside.....but who knows the darkness within......who knows..........................

Hey guys this is just a random post since I have not post something....quite a long time...neway I posting a quote that I come across it when I was reading 'Air Gear' at 'One Manga'. It was said by Amy one of the Kogarasumaru's member...the panther......anyway....she was reluctant to catch the badge....because the distance between her and the badge is pretty far away....but she said something inspiring that make her take a jump and try to grab the badge.....hahahahahahha for most of the people...they might not no what I am talking about but anyway.....enjoy the quote

All that's left to do is just to do it so I won't complain even if I fail

I have a theory....Ill call it Voltaire's Theory.....According to Voltaire's Theory, a great and awesome band are bands that have weird or extraordinary name.....For example

Jimmy Eat World-Hear You me, Polaris, 23, The Middle, Kill
Coldplay- Viva la vida, Yellow
Damien Rice- 9 Crimes
Goo Goo Dolls- Iris, Stay With You
Dashboard Confessional- Don't Wait, Dusk and Summer, Hands Down
A Day to Remember-You Had me hello
Five for Fighting-Superman, 100 years
The Fray-You Found Me, Over my head, How to save a life
Funeral For a friend-Into Oblivion, Walk Away
Get Set Go- I hate Everyone
Hinder-Lips of an angel, better than me, Without You
The Honorary Title-Thin Layer, Far More, Stay Away
Hoobastank-If I were you, The reason
The Hours-Back when you were good
Hyde-Cape of Storms, Season Call
Ice Nine Kills-Last Word, Built Your Own Disaster
Jack's Mannequin- The Mixed Tape, Dark Blue, La La Lie
Jackson's Water-Come Undone
Breaking Benjamin-Diary of Jane, Follow Me
Jet- Look What You've Done
Lifehouses-I'll Try, You and Me, Broken, Take me Away, From where you are, Only One (I have a friend that completely obsessed about Lifehouse)
L'Arc~en~Ciel-Fourth Avenue Cafe, Ready Set Go
The Little Heroes-Thank You
Lost Prophets-Wake Up, Last Train
Low vs Diamond-I'll Be, Life After love
Mayday Parade-I hate to be you when people
Melee-Built to Last
My Chemical Romance-I don't Love You
Nada Surf-Always Love
Nickelback-Photograph
One Republic-Stop and Stare, Dreamin
Our Lady Peace-Somewhere out there
Secondhand Serenade-Broken, Stay Close Don't Go, Awake, Fall For you
Sum 41-With Me, Walking Disaster, Pieces
Switchfoot-You, Stars, Meant to live
Tenth Avenue North-By your side
Travis-Closer, Love will come through
Three Days Grace-Never too late
The Used- Blue and Yellow, Yesterday's Feeling Its Hard to say
Uverworld-Colours of the heart
Vega 4- Life is beautiful
Yellowcards-Shadow and regrets, Everywhere, Only one
3 doors down-Here without you, let me go, Its not my time
Jupiter Sunrise-Steal Me
Lm.C- Boys and Girls, 88
Train-Trops of Jupiter
The Verve Pipe- Freshman

If you have the time....check out my theory hahahaha :-p

I was clouded.....I can't think straight....the answer are clear, the clue are there and the truth is right in front of me....but why do I still continue doing it.....I realised it long ago.....what they have is different from what we have but why do I still give a damn about that......why do I still linger around....hoping for some kind of miracle........the maroon knight that I have been waiting for.....that I have been so much obsessed to....have evolved to a Silver V.....and yet I'm still here standing......and waiting

Guys do you still remember my previous post that I said I hate February...well apparently its the other way round....FEBRUARY HATES ME......its fact not fiction...let me prove it......this month....my pc spoiled....have to take go repair....and the day I got back my pc....my hp got problem....so i also take go and repair....and WHEN THE DAY I CAN GET BACK MY HP.....I sprained my ankle......so this proves that February hates me.....no the freaking UNIVERSE HATE ME

Today is the 3rd week of February...February is coming to an end....and March are just around the corner...and the March 12th are getting closer.....March 12th? What so special about it.....some one's birthday? or a public holiday?.....well to the whole world March 12th is nothing but just another hectic days that people have to go through...but for me...and some of my friends....March 12th is very important because.....12th of March last year...2008....I went for NS...to be precise Kem Bakau Resort....at there...I've been through a lot of things that change my perspective of life.....and at there....I've done a lot a lot a lot of thing for the first time.....and at there I've met a bunch of interesting people and I've met a bunch of great great great friends. Kem Bakau Resort is the best thing that happen in my life. Nostalgic......i believe all my friends are too.....walking down the memory lane...reminiscence and reliving all those moment....12th of March its the beginning......an anniversary that we should celebrate...so for those that read this blog ahahahahaha you have fall into my trap....YOU NEED TO PLAN THE CELEBRATION

Today is the 14th of Feb aka Valentine's Day...it is a day where couples send chocholate and flowers to each other....and have dinner in a fancy restaurant which the food is ridiculously expansive.....it is a happy day for couples.....but an eclispe for those single....stuck at home.....surfing net or doing whatever shit...fully aware that couples are basically roaming around the street being all puffy, bubbly and happy.....haiz I am one of them...let me recount how was my valentines....

From morning 6am to 1pm....stuck in the bilik seni...preparing for my english week, 2.30pm send my mom to my aunt house (they are going to genting to watch some concert) and have a lonely trip back home, 3.00pm to 5 pm watch television....and then have dinner....after dinner...watch titanic...after titanic.....surf the web for a while and then around 8 or so....watch Pirates of The Carrabien: Dead men chest and then surf the net again.....listening to all the love song in my itune...and then finally writing about it.....what worse is that from morning till now...I cant stop thinking about X .....can't stop thinking about them....haiz I'm pathetic

Reasons that I hate february

1. I have a feeling that a storm is coming
2. I know something that I'm not suppose to know
3. Realised that what he have with him...is different from what we have
4. My Pc have to reformat...so goodbye to all my video and half of my songs
5. The day I got my pc...my NEW HP got problem

There are more to come

cold.....its cold......staring up at the sky....rains drop by drop appear out of no where from the dark sky....pelting my face sending the chill to my spine....and to my heart.....my mind is too occupied....to realised the people around me.....staring and pointing at me...the lunatic....standing under the drizzling rain....staring at the gloomy sky....my mind is too occupied...walking down the memory lane...of my NS life....how I missed them...everything its so simple at that time...my mind is too occupied..reliving all those moment that only I...myself thought its romantic....my mind is too occupied...with all those fantasies that I have to comfort me....my mind is too occupied...with images....images that its not even real...images that I myself pictured it....but I know.....it really happens...either the same as how I pictured it...or not....my mind is too occupied...with the feeling that I have...the feeling that a huge storm is coming....and my feeling so far have never fail me before......whats all this have to do with the rain....truthfully I have no idea...but....somehow.....somehow...the grey sky, the chill down my spine and my heart, the feeling of the rain hit my face.....somehow....all these comforts me......somehow.....I thought that it might wash away all those stupid thought in my mind......I know its foolish and not going to work but at least for a few second....just a few second.......I hate february....