Puzzle pieces of a beautiful picture

Suddenly out of no where...there is a tune in my head...it is a bit reminising...and funny at the same time hahahahahahhaa......it goes something like this:

Company Charlie's hot to go,
H.O.T.T.O.G.O,
NGAUMMMMMM,
Its hot to go,
NGAUMMMMM,
T.O.G.O,
NGAUMMMMM.


hahahahha some people might have absolutely no idea what did I say just now....but to some may know what I am talking about hahahahahaha

Ok...I just finish watching Grey's Anatomy Season 5 Episode 18 entitle 'Stand By Me' It was the most anticipated episode in the century because on the ending of the previous episode, Izzie told Cristina about her having Stage 4 Metastatic Melanoma which spread to her liver, skin and brain and her survival rate its only 5 %. After I have watched this episode, no....WHILE I WAS WATCHING THIS EPISODE....I am feeling alot alot alot of different kind of feeling.....I felt sad, regret, goosebump, anxious, and a whole lot of feeling that I don't think there is any word for it. Okay where do I start.........OK during the entire episode....I was so anxious and my heart was beating so fast.....wondering when will Izzie going to tell Meredith and the others about her cancer.....I always thought she will be the one who break it to them...but it turns out to be Cristina......Cristina believes that Izzie needs help.....help from friends that ot just she herself can give......so during Cristina first ever 'Solo Surgery' before she take the scapel.....she told Alex and Bailey which both also present at the OR.....when Cristina told them.......my heart skipped a beat....and the expression on Bailey and Alex definitely give me the chill........I believe that is the Climax of the entire episode but other than that...there is also a lot of parts in this episode that touches my heart and give me the goosebumps. For example, the part where Callie told Derek about her killing her patient because of her mistake......the story touches me...and somehow I able to understand how she and Derek feels.......I mean how will you feel if your single mistakes kill a person...and what worse how will you face their love one.....and how will you face yourself. Other than that, the part where a patient 'David Young' that was getting a face transplant...that lost his face in a car accident, kick out all his friends (which they met online and never saw his face) because he don't want them to see his ugly face....Lexie convincing him to let his friend see him....and the part where his friend finally see his 'ugly' face and told him that they don't care and one of them kiss his cheek and when they show him his new face after the surgery......ALL OF THESE PART GAVE ME UNSTOPPABLE GOOSEBUMP, and what touch me the most is when EVERYBODY Bailey, The Chief, George, Alex, Cristina, and Meredith helps Izzie.......be by her side.....face the cancer TOGETHER.

As a new adventure begins..new happy memories are made, and new pictures are taken. The old ones are taken down...one by one being replace by the new one.....being put at the very back of the book....only flip back and take a look once in a blue moon.....and as YEARS goes by, the old ones are not going to be there anymore but lost in those passing time.......That is my greatest fear, that is my tragedy.....to be forgotten.....or to be that 'some random guy' that my name are not important......I know...I sound a bit selfish and a bit whiny......I realised that myself....to be not forgotten....all I need to do is just take a chance.....take the initiative to do soething to be remembered.....as the matter of fact....I am doing it right now....fighting a hell of a battle with time.....but.....I still able to feel this selfish feeling all the time.

To meet someone is a gift from faith, to able to be friends is one of a million chance...cherish the relationship between 2 human....because it is not easy to meet each other althought they are in the same place.....and it is much harder to become friends

Here is a topic that I would like to open to you guys for discussion.....tell me what do you think once you read this



Sometimes not knowing something, or not know too much is better than knowing everything

Note-This sentence is not talking about education stuff.....we need to noe a lot in our studies.....this sentence is talking about gossips....

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CHECK 3

How many check do I need to really get through my head.......to freaking let go

Haiz I know I promised to myself and some of my friends that not to post anymore emo post....but dammit.....I need to post this.....Do you still remember my previous post about how February hates me....there was part that I said I have a feeling that a storm is coming....well today I felt it again...and the feeling is getting stronger and intense.....I know it....a storm is coming....and its not a normal storm.....it is the storm that causes by my stupidity and it strikes like a thunder....unexpected, fast, and fatal at the same time and like domino's when one was struck down...others will follow.....some people might ask, what kind of 'FEELING' is that?....I can't really put it into words......but all I can say is that.....I felt that people around me are acting strangely.......and their behaviour somehow makes me feel invincible, transparent....that I'm nothing, nobody that my very existence is insignificant.....that if one day I were to lost and disappear.....no one would noticed.....no one.....and because of this feeling of emptiness and insignificance will always causes me to do stupid stuff, make stupid decisions, and act irrationally...and all that is the cause of storm........and that's the feeling that I have today and couple of days ago and this is the reason I said a storm is coming......It happens before, I mean the feeling and the storm...it happens 2 years ago and I was damaged.....greatly damaged and I still carry the scar from that storm......hahahahahah all of you are thinking that I think too much....or I am just paranoid...well maybe I am...but still the feeling is choking me......anyway......I am not going to make the same mistakes like last time....the game plan would be to pretend nothing happen, ignore those feeling and think positive......and DO NOT DO SOMETHING STUPID