Puzzle pieces of a beautiful picture
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Happy New Year
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE....AND ITS THE YEAR 2009.....Which means I am having my STPM this year so no play play edi haiz......I seriously doubt that this year is going to be a great year.......this year is goin to be a crappy year.......neway My New Year RESOLUTION
- Be Extraordinary
- Try Harder and Never give up things so easily
- Closer to XXXX XXX
- Be more open, stopped being complicated and a close door
- Deal with my issues
- Believe in myself
- Be strong
- Be much more reliable
- Be a great friend
- Be a great cosplayer
- Be a better human being
- Able to express myself
- Try not to be in my dark place
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Easily destroy...easily lost
Have you ever painted a wall with pictures and logos which took you about like an hour or plus plus to finished it but at the end of the day you have to paint over those pictures and logos which you work so hard on?...If you don't well I have....it was sad at first I mean....we actually spend a lot of time and effort to paint those pictures...and we have to paint over it...because those pictures are not good enough....this event made me realised something. We took bout an hour and half to draw the pattern, and also to paint it but it only took less than 10 minutes to paint over it...it made me realised that no matter how much time, how much effort you put to built something...i can just be easily destroy...easily lost within a few minutes....some of us take things for granted and never appreciate it, never realising that how easily all those things can be lost in just a blink of an eye...and there are also some others that realised this fact and they hump and hump and hump...break every bit of their sweat to protect what they built with their bare hand...cherish what they have now and grateful of what they are given....Nicholas Sparks once wrote in his book 'Three Weeks with my Brother';
'Who said that life is fair? What you get and what you want is entirely two different things'
Few generations ago, all those kids, all those grown ups...know very well what is that quote talking about...because people from that generation know very well...how hard to gain something, to built something and sometimes what they get is different from what they want...but they do not whine or got completely drama queen about it because they know....they know that either they be grateful about it or ended up with nothing, but when come to this generation....10 out of 9 people, especially teenagers and kids they practically whine everyday...they didn't realised the hardship that their parents have to go through to provide them all those stuff that they are having now and totally oblivious about how easy all those thing will be gone.
This rule of life applies to love, to friendship, to family....we must cherish what love and friendship we have right now...because someday for some reason it might just go away...there is an old saying that you can't choose your family......no matter how much we don't like our family...well they are still our family we can't just say no and change a new family and plus...you can easily lost a family....i mean a car accident, a fire.....this thing can happen.
p.s....I am such a hypocrite, writing all those crap...I mean....I didn't even did half the thing I wrote up there...sometimes I complain, I whined...eventhough I know about this rule of life
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Fairy Tales
Cinderella, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, all these are fairy tales and although they are all different in term of story line but they have 2 things in commo. First they all have handsome prince that always come to the rescue and second they all have happy endings. Same thing apply to those Taiwanese and Korean Drama that is so popular right now, all includes attractive guy and happy endings. Hahahahaha sorry to say to the ladies, those thing will never happen in real life so stop dreaming. There is no attractive guy that is perfect and happy ending never exist. Among 10 marrried couples, 10 out of 10 of these couples are not married to their soul mate, there are always some other guy. This is not sad, this is not pathetic, its just reality. So one advice here to the girls and also to the guys...don't dream and don't expect too much...all those drama only happens in television and it will never happen in real life. Don't get me wrong here, I am not calling you to not find your soul mate, in fact I was telling you to find your soul mate...go find it in the most simplest way and don't wait for some 'miracles or 'coincidence' that always happen in those taiwanese and korean drama. Again this is real life, those thing will never happen... Once you have found your soul mate cherishe every moment you have with him or her because...sorry to say.....there will be no happy ending.
A Sound That Woke me up
Today early morning, I was woken by the solat, you know, the sound they made when the muslim pray, anyway its weird there are like no mosque around my house and somehow I can still hear the sound as if it was just right next to my house. I asked my brother and he said he heard nothing. So its either he slept like a pig that he heard nothing or I am just imagining it. Either way the sound make me reminisce about my life in national service. I know, I know it has been like 7 months already and I'm supposed to have moved on, haiz anyway the sound take me down to the memory lane because hahahahaaha funny story when I was there, the thing that woke me up and act as an alarm clock is that sound. HAhahaha at that moment after I heard the sound, I have images, brief images of how my life used to be, I mean...I saw mess 4 once again, I saw some of my mess mate preparing for solat and some are still snoozing. I was actually able to see it very clearly and it feels so real...i can feel the smell of the air, the atmosphere hahahahahahaha but it was very brief like about half a minute tops anyway hahahaha for a second I thought I was dead cuz they said when someone died they can see flash of images of their life hahahaha luckily I'm still alive. That images made me kind of miss it, my life there, the people and my friends. So I got to my pc ad start looking at the picture, my friend's friendster and facebook profile, I even take the initiative to read Alford's previous blog that was about ns, read my diary, listening to songs like 'kenangan terindah', 'freshman',...those songs that got me thinking about NS hahahahaha I know I' pathetic but to tell you the truth I'm glad that I went to NS, I'm glad that I went to Kem Bakau Resort. Some people might think I'm stupid especially you '...' but then hahahaha I just miss it so much.
Monday, December 1, 2008
Words of Haruhi Suzumiya
Today early morning, there are like another half an hour before my tuition class start, I decided to take a morning walk around the around...to clear my head somehow....anyway...as I walk...looking at those bystanders....it got me thinking about something Haruhi Suzuiya said....by the way, Haruhi Suzumiya is a fictional character from a japan anime 'The Melancholy of haruhi Suzumiya'.....Haruhi was in her most emo...state....when she said these words to Kyon.......i can't quote the exact word that Haruhi said because...it is way too long....so I'll just simplified it.....
she said that when she was small...she thought that she is the most special people in the world and that she have the most interesting people in her class....but after she went to a sold out baseball game, she was stunned.....stunned by the amount of people...in just a small town she was living....she used to thought that she was special but after seeing this uch of people...she realized that she is not special at all.....in that huge number of people....there are some people that migt have the same personalities as her.....
Somehow, I get how she feel.....what am I.....I barely made up a fragment....a piece...a dot......not even a microscopic size of the world...and what makes me so special.......There like a tons of people with the same porsonalities as me.....what akes me stand out among all those people..........sometimes....I feel that my existance is so small that I can easily just be forgotten.........there are no extraordinary person that truly stands out.....
Counter Blog
who cares that if you didn't stand out among those billions or trillions of people in the world.....no one give a damn if you are not special because what the world think does not matter....what important thing is to be yourself in your own world and thats what matters.
she said that when she was small...she thought that she is the most special people in the world and that she have the most interesting people in her class....but after she went to a sold out baseball game, she was stunned.....stunned by the amount of people...in just a small town she was living....she used to thought that she was special but after seeing this uch of people...she realized that she is not special at all.....in that huge number of people....there are some people that migt have the same personalities as her.....
Somehow, I get how she feel.....what am I.....I barely made up a fragment....a piece...a dot......not even a microscopic size of the world...and what makes me so special.......There like a tons of people with the same porsonalities as me.....what akes me stand out among all those people..........sometimes....I feel that my existance is so small that I can easily just be forgotten.........there are no extraordinary person that truly stands out.....
Counter Blog
who cares that if you didn't stand out among those billions or trillions of people in the world.....no one give a damn if you are not special because what the world think does not matter....what important thing is to be yourself in your own world and thats what matters.
