Puzzle pieces of a beautiful picture

MyLDS 2010, NatCon 2011, and MNC 2012, in total I have been to 3 AIESEC National Conference, and among those three, the most impact is not MyLDS 2010 like everyone said but rather NatCon 2011, and MNC 2012 that people would deemed boring. No surprise there that unlike MyLDS 2010 that is about fun development, NatCon 2011 and MNC 2012 is about serious planning and leadership development. Till now, I did not regret being an EB, yes the stress, the social life restriction and of course not to mention the conflict, but the bright side of being EB is much more fruitful. Shouldering the responsibility of a Vice President of Project Management NatCon, makes me mature, doing planning, analyzing GCP's, coming up with strategies and initiatives and of course same goes with making new friends. What I have experience in NatCon is what truly makes me grow and develop as a person. However, it was a different feeling for MNC 2012, although NatCon and MNC are practically the same, but unlike other delegates and unlike NatCon 2011, I am not carrying the responsibility of the Vice President but the resignation of a leader. The reason of my resignation that a lot of people believe is because of teh conflict but actually it is not. It is one of the reason but not the main, the true driver is I find no relevancy being in a department that I do not like at all. Continuing doing things that you are not passionate about and looking at other people wasting their opportunities in doing what you like, it is unbearable, so I throw the white towel. With this mindset, being in MNC is not as gloom as I thought it would be. I have a lot of fun as well. Now going back to the present NatCon 2012 is happening right now, and I am not there kind of depressed me a little. I enjoy NatCon a lot, I enjoy the planning, the morning plenary, the ambiance, and of course Ben-Jie, interestingly enough and see how our position change. Here I am now, in a lonely Starbucks, writing this blog, reminiscing those moment I have at NatCon and MNC makes me wonder, Why? Why I did not apply for the Vice President of Communication. In retrospect in my MC Manager interview and seeing myself how I screwed up the interview. When asked about any way to come up with the Brand Audit, why I did not say about the mind mapping and the association mapping that I studied. When telling me that my position is shaky because of my resignation why I did not argue that my resignation is not a liability for me because my resignation shows that how passionate I am in Communication department. Here I am now, once again, mopping that I'm here and not there at NatCon, to plan for things that I wanted to do, the funny story is that, I already have the plans in my head and I BELIEVE my plans is going to work and it will definitely REVOLUTIONIZE how Communication department in AIESEC Malaysia has been doing. Another stomp in the heart is of course Ben-Jie............

I don't get it, seriously don't get it, why everyone have to blame me, always blame my emotion, I know I'm wrong but don't blame everything on me lah, I'm not that unreasonable, I'm not that stubborn ok, it works both way, ok, seriously why have to blame me on everything.

Gabriel Ng Chee Kar, today 24th September 2010...you must not forget about today because today, Rexy massage you and bought you a drink and teh yee sing both yopu a fruit cocktail and ate the strawberry that you feed it to him.......do not forget about today

Starting from today, 2nd of September 2010,its been 2 months since I'm here in UUM...today will be the beginning of mid em break, and today people are leaving back to their home. Today Im kinda dull actually because I come to enjoy this place, and seeing these people leaving this place and not seeing them for 2 weeks just kinda makes me a little sad. Really miss those dota match with wei chang, tuck joon, choon hoe, lun heng, and wenn hui, misses 7.9 activities and peeps, hwai loke, chee keong, ah pong, thung hui, cling and ah sun. Misses those people I care about, Han Choong, Amanda, Chan Hui, Jeng yi, and Rui yi. Last and for most missing 2 tou fu, Rexy and Yee Sing...especially yee sing.....I'm so going to miss that fellow man....TEH YEE SINGGGGGG YOU IDIOT..........then today have dinner at kachi mall....its weird reli weird man.....kachi mall used to be full with people but today is just so so so damn quiet......its weird actually that I'm feeling all this kind of crap

Well I have blabbering about AIESEC at my previous post and now I'm going to talk about the another thing that makes me like UUM so much....7.9. 7.9 is a non offcial club that mostly based on music...which means it is an underground band.....it is really fun man......every tue 7.45pm, gathering at lovers bridge or foyer library without fail....gather to do what?.....actually just to sing song's.....sing the songs that they wrote and songs from singers and then game session....and then they also got teach to play musical instrument (i'm learning piano)....I know it sounds boring...but for some reason I love it so much and I have great admiration towards the seniors at 7.9 like Wen chee, banana, ah keong, ah pong, jan jan, hwai loke, ah xi and Daniel....

hahahha my blog is not really chronically arrange becoz this post happen long time ago and I felt the need to post it just in case I need to refer back when i have amnesia or Alzeimer anyway...on the 11th of August 2010 its also the first day of puasa, I did a crazy thing....the day before is the AIESEC gathering day and also the day when they goin to announnce the position...anyway....we have a lot of fun that night, and I got the Organizing Committe Vice President of Communication of RED Wave or in short OCVPCom RED Wave....so neway...most of the people leave at 11 to catch the last bus....but me linda, foo jin shing, weng yi, jen yi, gaik huey, wei lie, and man keat stayed and juz chat and dance until 12 hahahaha...then we started walking back to our dpp...since it is the ghost month, foo jin shing kept talking about ghost story at UUM and that scared the hell out of the girls, and then out of sudden he have a crazy idea, he said why don we go 'yam cha' at subaidah (mamak in UUM) at 3am and for somne reason we agreed...and then by the time I reach my room and after the whole ritual of showering and stuff its already 1 stg...so I take a short...veri short nap and then 2 am wake up....then go to sime darby lake to meet up with Jen YI and then walk to Subaidah and meet the others there.....we are damn crazy weh.....we are the first customer and also we are the only non muslim there hahahaha then after our 'yam cha' session is already 4 stg...and then reach room ard 5 but due to the teh tarik and the BIG rice...i am so energetic that I go online and watch movie until 7 then go to bed....woke up by Shen Chieh call at 9am then go to ALOR SETAR and watch 2 movie.....hahahahahhaha

Have you ever dance under the rain?....It may sounds crazy IF u are doing it alone.....if u do it with a lot of people, there is nothing but pure joy. AIESEC....I really have a lot of fun....as long as the music kept on playing, we will kept on dancing. although I have hard time cathing up with them but i still have a lot of fun.....the funny thing is.....the rain kept getting heavier and heavier as we dance.....so maybe our dance is the ancient rain dance where people do it to call for rain hahahhahahaha